I never wanted us to fade out, resting on a love that fell apart

Celeste; I was shocked, honey. Haha but hi anyway!! It's morning madness so I'm little blur & stuff. I'm sure I've seen you before @ school. (: Well, see you then!
Shirl; Haha allright. Provided you don't mind the ugliness. :/
Rena; Haha thanks! :D

Thanks for commenthing, LOVE!
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If only I had one wish, I'd want a million trillion lifetimes that I could spend with you. I'd fall in love with you again & again.
If only.

Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart.

I think I saw her in the cab. That very ultra familiar cab. I wished it was my eyes that's playing tricks with me while I was thinking of her. But the car number plate can never be wrong. Tell me why didn't I jolt it down when she told me what was the number? Now I'm scared, very scared. I don't know why. I wish it weren't here. I wish I'd had taken another route instead. I wish I weren't thinking of her so I won't be looking out for blue cabbies. :/

I felt like crying at that very moment, hoping my phone would ring & the screen appears your name.

Fuck this shit.
I feel so fucked up. So sad. So confused. So undecided. So unhappy. So incomplete. So broken up inside. So tearyeyed. So pissed. So ruined. I don't know which of these to feel. Happy is not the current emotion that's running in my blood.

I have so much to say, I've got so much that I need to tell someone to. Someone reliable & trustworthy, of course. I agree with Shirleen that everyone needs a listening ear all the time. I feel like I'm falling apart once again. I want us to come back together, I want you to come closer & stay, I want us to never fall apart again, I want to wish that we'd be as happy as we used to when we get back together. What happened to the princesses' in the fairytales? I miss all of you, dotcha' know that? Well, now you do.

I'm so sick of Art. I wish I still had your back. :/ April called & kinda cheered me up a little last night. (: Talked & all, texted & slept @ the same time. I swear I don't know what was I typing. Gosh. :/ Hm woke up again @ 4plus. Then again @ 5pm. Drew three sketches! Back to sleep after that. Woke up 730, fall back for 10minutes & woke up finally. Dad drove me to school. I'm so fucking hungry now 'cos I haven't eaten anything since.. yesterday. Almost two days! I feel like I'm fainting/ falling asleep anytime soon. Haha my eyelids are really heeeavy. Stayed @ school till fucking three. Thanks to that mad woman. :/ So fucked up.

I wanna drink bubble teaaa now. Ah I shall go get it later. I have yet to bathe & sexy Eliza said she'd be coming back online but have yet to do so. :/ I'm waiting for you, babe. ): Got so much to tell you! Ooooh shall I bring the alcohol I bought the other day over? Nono I shan't. (: I don't wanna share. Heh. Selfish I know. [:

But we're meant to be loved, it is the greatest gift we've got.
I can never make you love me again.

I shall be nice & upload the pictures later. (: Ay if I'm not lazy to after showering! :D

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There's quite a few videos to watch. This is the dumb walk at Dhoby Ghaut. I don't know if I've shown this but acks, here is it. Then back to 3rd August @ Carl's Jr, 1 2 3 ! There's more but it's with Qiaos. I'll get it publish up here when I get it. Photos another time. Gotta rushhhhhh!
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Here's my heart, I'll let you break it.
<3.

4:12 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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